This feels like a multiple bereavement equivalent:
I left my job in March, because of bullying. Havent worked since and have to sign on.
Mellie left me 5 weeks and 6 days ago, completely to my surprise. The week before, she picked me up from the station at 04.30, we held hands around town, met friends, cuddled all night, made love. The morning before she left we discussed supper. Then she came home and announced she was leaving, with no explanation. A week later she (and our supposed friends) came round and cleared her stuff out. She wrote me a letter and sent 2 emails. She wont speak to me, her phone and email are blocked, I am officially not allowed to call her at work, or email her at work. I don't know where she is. She called all our friends and families to get her story in first. She might as well be dead, along with our friends and her family. No response from anyone. She wont even take messages from me via our friends or family. Because of this, I should give her up, because of her total cruelty. But because I love her, I know this is not the real Mellie, and would forgive her in an instant, if I was given the chance. I have never experienced this amount of pain.Heartbroken. I can cry at any time of day.
I am having to sell my house: 4 bedrooms (and no job) seem a bit excessive for one person all alone.
On June 18 is the 1st anniversary of my best friend's death, and the 3rd anniversary of my father's.
Deep joy.
8 comments:
Have read your blog for quite a while now- have never posted a reply- BUT today I feel I must. Have read your heart rending entry today and all I can say is if only Mel knew how feel about her leaving, perhaps things would be different, but as it seems she never will then you must not allow everything that has happened to destroy your life. Keep strong, and tell yourself that things can only get better.
Always remember that you're not alone, Andy. You have friends who have broad shoulders and are willing to help you bear the misery.
I can only second what the others have said. It hurts like hell to lose someone you love but even more when it comes from out of the blue. I hope you can make it through this darl period and find some light. Till then we're all here to help! much love xx
We wish you strength, Andy!
- L & V
I am so shocked and sorry, Andy. I did wonder from some things I had read but I'm not very quick on the uptake and wasn't sure what had happened. I guess I didn't want to believe it. Health issues have preoccupied me over the last few months and I've been ignoring my friends. Wrong of me. I'll call you.
I would like to second what Jan said. Hang in there, old chap!
My commiserations earlier seemed to have vanished! Hope everything gets sorted quickly. We were down your way but traveling with my mum and our plans were pretty tight so we did not make it into Teignmouth :(
Another time I hope! You are very welcome to come and visit us in San Diego if you're itching to travel again soon! Mean it!!
Andy,
You are in control of your destiny. There are things that you can't control and trying will only cause you pain, but there is so much you do have the power to determine. Grasp the moment and summon up strength to build the life you want.
Find the support you need from people who can help.
I promise you there's happiness out there waiting for you to find it.
I've missed Dave for years, I always hoped upon hope that one day I'd get him, (the real him) back and now I know I never will. Andy, your family need the real you back. The strong guy. The guy who did the right thing, who brought up his children and ran a career, the guy who was my brother's friend for life. Dig deep, the real you, the resourceful you is still there
and so many people care.
Smile Andy, and keep smiling.
This too will pass.
xxxxx
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